Every now and again I stumble upon a song that I used to listen to and upon hearing the melody a rush of memories pours into my mind. Sometimes happy, sometimes sad. I had that experience today.
When I was 17 years old my first girlfriend and I broke up. It was really hard for me because we had known each other since we were 12 years old. We dated for about 3 years and when it was good it was great. We had our share of problems however, she had started getting into smoking, both weed and cigarettes. Something that I was not about. (I’m still not about it even now)
After we broke up I discovered this song. It made my heart sink. It just felt like the song had to be about my failing relationship and how much I missed her. For a time I really believed we would eventually cross paths again later in life and have a happy family together.
Of course I met someone new and had an even longer 4 year relationship with her. I didn’t talk to my first girlfriend for years. Then randomly one day, after my other 4 year relationship we ran into each other randomly. Just as I thought would happen. She recognized me, yet I did not even recognize her. Not that she looked bad or anything, I just honestly did not know who she was.
We ended up trying to be friends for about a week but that did not work out. She started dating some guy and he didn’t want us being friends any more. I didn’t even really care because I had gone plenty of years without her so far.
To this day we haven’t seen, or spoken to each other.
So this post is dedicated to her. We had a good run while it lasted, and even though it ended on a bad note, I’m glad we shared the time we did. I’ve grown so much because of it, I know she’s made mistakes, but one day I hope she has it all.
I’m not bitter. I’ve moved on. Sorry for the long post, today’s song is “Tongue Tied” by October Fall.
The lyrics that hit me the hardest are –
“Your head lays down upon this car
But I hate you for what you are
And what I have become
Fire burns within your lungs
So light yourself another smoke
And recreate what you call home”
These hit the hardest because we had issues with her smoking which eventually ruined our relationship. Anyway, it’s a great song and I hope you enjoy it.
lesser known music 